Carpe Diem

The recent ecomonic crisis and the global unrest has brought many a thoughts to my mind.
you'll never noe when the flame is sniffed out from the candle of life.
If you noe you just have one more day ahead, wat will ya do?
Sieze the day, i'll say.
The little boss is posting out, changes abound.
i'm increasingly finding the workplace unbearable.
dun think i'm able to stick it out much longer.
if i only have a life, i wanna do something i luv, else something bearable yah.

Numbness

a tad hurt at her nonchalance regarding the wedding,
maybe i hurt her with my betrayal, our easy acceptance of him.
the ease in welcoming him back into our lives.
bro says she was deeply hurt. by our betrayal.
maybe our views on the subject matter are not aligned. given our positions.
at this point in time, with the wedding upcoming, it does not matter much anymore.
my heart is kinda immure, from the many rounds of battering.
i am unable to discuss the matter with her, the lack of interest from her.
the dear says i've been affected, with my unconscious venting of frustrations over small matters.
i wonder how long i can keep the facade up?
that everything is progressing well unilaterally.
for every non response cuts at the fabric of the whole. i act cheerful, i joke, when tears are welling up within. time after time.
in retrospect, i could have handled confessions better.
but, keeping too much secrets is a burden on itself. i felt relieved, to have come clean on the matter. or perhaps, some things are best left unsaid. as i have learn the hard way.
why? does the ties of kin fade with the passage of time?
sometimes i wonder, what constitutes significant to her?
or perhaps, the hurt i caused her, is the most significant aspect of the issue.

A whole lota books

i luv trawling expo for mega sale events. cheap gets.. it brings out the auntie in moi.
the Borders sale this weekend was the best ever.
we went for the metro sale on thursday, and saw the poster that Borders was having a sale.. hee
so we popped by on friday nite to check out the first ever borders expo sale.
imagine my ecstasy when i found that the books were literally going for a song.
great books for $4 and in pristine condition..
wat more can a auntiey book lover ask for?
and there were many many genres to choose from.
i thought i had died and gone to literary heaven..
piles and piles of great books. at $4 -$12 plus.
wah hoo.. i manged to restraint my self yah,
or rather, the dear one restrained moi..
i only lagged back 10 ( one belonging to the dearie).. compared to the many book lovers who were carrying truckloads..
am currently reading the chick read book..
there's still the jaime oliver book .. the book on tibet, the book on the famous egyptian queen..
the book on Indian cultures.. and many others..
hee.. super duper happy with my purchases.. :)
looking forward to the next expo borders book sale.. ;p

tits a jolly good show

am not really a movie buff but my luv of movies began in my honors year at uni.
the fantasy world of the unreal brings me away from the mandate everyday, from stress.
i find myself wanting to watch more movies when ever i'm stressed..
it must be that planning for the big day is getting to me..

finally managed to catch The Dark Knight.. at Bugis yesterday, the last day of the free tixs the dear one had.
tits really a great show.Christian Bale makes a great batman.. Heath Ledger wonderful as joker in his swan song..
as well as the slow descent into darkness for Harvey Dent.. indeed, for life can be truly a binary.
was the joker mad in his quest to challenge the norms/moral codes defined by society?
moral sanctions imposed upon the amoral by the self defined moral? a tit bit freudian i would say.
hee hee.. tits beyond moi..
but tits really a jolly good show. to moi.. :)

Dah..

the other departments are exploring the effects of new media..and certainly keeping up with the times.
my unit? the big boss is still draconian and runs the unit like his mini empire.
sometimes i truly wonder whether the organization is the same one whole?
it must be just me, why do i take in so much crap from mediocre leadership ?
my extreme skepticism has made me increasingly vocal during internal meetings.
Systemic structural fault seems my fav quote these days. its not for lack of effort in wanting to push for changes.
the place does not encourage individualsim, i think i am getting increasingly stupid by the day.
i gotta move. after the wedding. i promise.

Wedding Blues

think i'm a kinda slack bride.. unlikely that i'll turn into bridezilla anytime soon.. well, after all, isn't it the life after the wedding that matters? chill.. hope the wedding wun turn out to be a big flop yah.. ;p

Our 2-in-1 2008

these days, we are fairy busy with the house reno..
penny pinching with the limited budget which we have since busted big time..
lights, fittings, furnishings, curtains, bed,crockery etc etc..
a new house, our new home, a new phase in life..
getting highly domesticated by the day..
tits tiring to do both the house and the wedding together..
not to mention the extensive damage on the wallet and the depleting savings..
we gotta save, we gotta invest, i gotta move, i gotta learn to cook (highly inspired by the food blogs i've been reading.. yum) after this busy busy 2-in-1 year of ours..

Another daunting week at work

Its really these days whereby the buttering from the top gets too daunting..
that the urge to be more humane to myself surfaces..
should i stay or move?
the pay increments have just been announced. and its damn attractive..
but my battered soul may not be able to hold on for longer
for i have always felt that work culture could be better at other organisations,
perhaps i really should move, in Oct, after the wedding..
so that i can do something more satisfying..maybe just not in monetary terms.
anyways i like other colours besides blue..
okies. deal. job-searching in Oct 08. remind me, will ya?
of how truly shitty i felt, being blamed for something that was not my fault.
for not being allowed to do value added tasks in accordance to my pay.
there must be something that suits me outside, right?

The CHY movies

The year of the Rat is here,

and we managed to catch the 3 lunar new year movies..

the dear one ranks them as follows:

1) Kung fu dunk for the overall story

2) CJ7 for stephen chow's jokes although the pacing was slow

3) Ah long Pte Ltd... the critics were right!

ha ha.. although i would think that being able to laugh at familar no brainer jokes is a blessing in itself. not the dear, who finds the plot and jokes predictable. i would think that its a subjective thingy, for everyone has differing perceptions of what constitutes a good movie.. to me, the chance to escape into the Reel world for that short moment in time with the unfolding story, is worth the tix price. just knew i would not make a good movie critic!
I must really watch more movies this year!

Blogging?

i read an article on bloging in which the writer wrote of the change in the manner in which she approached the activity. The writer wrote that when she first started blogging, she wrote about very freely about anything and everything, akin to writing to a diary. writing anonymously. now, she has started to write for an audience and no longer write about things close to her heart. topics are limited to certain boundaries and written to impress. for you would never know who is reading. in the complexity that is the cyber world.

indeed, if the begining of blogging represented an outlet for the expression of self. a paperless method of detailing your thoughts and a record of your activities. however, with the proliferation of the activity, the advancement of technology and an entire generation of tech savvy cyber users in the information age, the blog moves from the private into the public sphere. with the possiblity of being linked to the blog thru various methods, the blog is an alternative to the mass media. the concept of the social construction and presentation of self in the cyber. maybe golfman's theorys of presentation of self are applicable, with there being an inner/outer binary.

it would be interesting to do a sociological discourse on the subject matter. in fact, facebooking would be another cyber social activity that is worth a discursive study. and the irony of the matter, it is beyond doubt that i am gulity of the above, as well.

Being a presenter

presenting is never my forte.. butterflies would gather in the unsettled tummy.. with the cheeks burning a bright red.. and the mind freezing into blankness..humpz.. many a presentations later.. its still the same.. shicks

really need to polish up on my presentation skills......... ;p

An alternate kind of chilling out

Since the dear gal has gotten her own place, we've been hanging out a fair bit at her lovely baroque themed house.Great conversation, free flowing red and white wine paired with cheese and crackers.We've become fans of take-away. Sushi, pizza, simply divine desserts like tiramisu from da palo's.. slurp..

I would say that noisy countdown parties and crowded places no longer appeals to us. Its the passage of time, we have moved past that stage.. for the cosy comfy ambience of jinny's place suits us fine. hee.. and the dear gal has been generously volunteering her place. Guess we'll all take turns to do the hosting when we have our own places.

Tits been a great start to the new year.. and i look forward to more cosy homey gatherings with wonderful company, stimulating conversation, good food in 2008..although there is always the danger of getting too tipsy with wine.. ;p

Ushering in 2008

We are a week into the new year,
cost of living is increasing with prices of everyday goods increasing
tits a good time for moi to rethink my spending habits..

1. Resturants only on weekdays afternoons (e.g Jake's Place's Set lunches are pretty value for money although we will inevitably end up hunting for resturants on weekends.. haiz )
2. Mass markets brands are value for money. ( The dear says i'll prob still buy my branded bags while he dresses in bossini)
3. Hawker food is yummy if you noe where to find framed makansutra cooks.(But we don't know where to queue..)
4. Home cooked food is best in terms of everything.( The dear says this is true if its his mum's cooking.. ;p)
5. Cosy gatherings at fre's place with great takeaway totally digs. (Spizza does delivery.. hee but that's kinda ex too.. opps)
6.Coupon cutting and buying when there is discounts is not aunty.(If we can find the coupons when we need erm.. )
7. The dear says less holidays means less money spent (which i totally disagree on principle, coz travel is everything to moi)

If we can adhere to the above, i'm sure we will survive rising oil prices.inflation and what not :)

Haiz.. Not much for new year resolutions..
Just to stay healthy
Just for the loved ones to stay healthy
Just for the career path to be smooth
Just to loss some weight and start working out
Just to stay connected with my dearest fres
Just to save more money
Just to add more countries to the travel list
Just to have my own place and a lovely wedding
and to get the elusive driving licence..!

Although thats alot to ask for, yah?

2007 in Summary..

tits was a year of a new posting, a new work environment.. alot of work milestones
tits a year of work, late nights, take away lunches and dinner
nothing much to show for the year
nothing much to take away for the year
except for the times i cherish, with my loved ones, my dear dear and my dearest fres
oh, and the 4 weddings and 1 baby birth in dec

2008 will be an eventful year, a year of changes in my life.
2007's simpleness is a blessing in itself, for i am not adaptive to changes.