Paper Writing

writing a paper is like fitting pieces of a jigsaw into a complete picture. Once the smaller pieces have formed, you see the big picture. provided you are a good jigsaw puzzle solver in the first place. am getting rusty. procrastination looms. damn. feels like a uni student again, albeit one with a rusty underused mind.. ;p

A well spent Sat..

the dear one and i went for a wedding show at Changi Village Hotel.. imagine my surpise when i saw a familar face in the sea of couples.. yupz. met kian ming and his galfriend. They were checking out the hotel as a ROM venue.. i must say i am very taken with the beautiful unkempt seaside views of the surroundings, the poolside with the fallen leaves. tis would be a great place to get married in..for ROM, for the ballroom is small for the dinner and the dear felt that the dishes were too salty. However, the hotel is really rustic and a good place for a local weekend getaway.

he wants to do a 2 in 1 thingy.. so that we can save the extra money spent for the ROM, oh wellz.. we can, if we can book a venue in 2008 , else, its good to do it on diff days. hmm.. if it were up to moi, i could do with just the ROM and not the dinner, for the fres you invite to the ROM would prob be the ones you value the most.. that said, part of me still wants the relatives to noe that mom mom had brought us up well, in spite of everything.. haiz.. diff decision. oh wellz..

anyways, we managed to sign up for a bridal package at the wedding show.. jinny's advice was not to sign up for the bridal package without previewing the growns actually available at the shop. oh wellz. the dear one and moi are prob to lazy to walk the whole of tanjong pagar. i like the simple and clean design style of the designer, fingers crossed that we did not make a hasty decision. realised that i do not like fancyful eloborated styles but something plain and simple. hopefully things will turn out wellz..

just realised that changi vilage area is a rather vibrant place, with many eating places, pubs and watering holes. the hawker centre has loads of yummy food. we had great fish and chips at Charlie's Corner, a charming place by the side of the hawker centre. the food's great, so i gather we would be making more trips to the area for makan..even if we are not going to pulau ubin.. ;p

Childhood Memories

Bittersweet.. its the first time after so long that he peeled prawns for me. in the many years that followed, i have come to not expect anything from him. The cooking style has changed, or so he claimed. We never used to have fish and prawns when we lived there. it was always only mommie who cooked the good stuff for us. the steam fish, prawns , veg and soup which he cooked was meant as an avenue he showed affection and care for us, the way the older generation expressed themselves. An elaborated meal by his standards..

Having a meal there, at the same home of yester years.. mixed emotions. for we have betrayed her, her love and her unconditional giving to us both by having a meal with him. but he will always be linked to us both. we have moved far far away with the passing of time but the locked memories of the past resurfaced yesterday.. in the familar place i used to call home. the person whom should have been part of my life and bros. he has aged significantly. it takes time to mend broken bridges, for he has been absent from a major part of our growing up years. its not easy, and the guilt at betraying mommie weighs greatly on moi.

He commented that he was the one who cared for us when we were younger, when mom mom cared only for other things. its the self delusion of an elderly person? i dun noe and dun wanna dwell too much into the past, for i have moved on and so have bro. no one is wrong in such matters, he has his flaws and to moi, mom mom is the person who brought me up. but, he too.. in the gap years that mom mom lived elsewhere. Its too late to comment on what has passed, whose faults it was.

Mixed feelings. Sadness.. bittersweet..for in the many years that followed, we had taken him completely out of our lives. its not easily to establish relationships, even harder to mend broken ones. but we are trying.. for i noe he cared deeply for bro and bro does care for him too. He has also moved on , his is a simple life with a new partner that suits him. am glad that he has someone who loves him and takes care of him. at least he is not a lonely man. for we can only see him occassionally. i dread breaking mom mom's heart, but he is kin too.. and an old man trying to find back his children. whatever wrong doings in the past, is past and no one's fault. hmm.. an awkard relationship this is.

Moving On?!

today's peaceful crowd at the workplace is an unusual sight in the 9 months i have been at the unit. i left around 730 with the dear one, for sushi was going cheap cheap at sakae.. and auntie moi just gotta have my sushi , yah! feels good to have time to do some blogging, reading of blogs.

7pm knock off timing.. the endless crowd with their expectations. i just came back after a week away for an off-site event, yet.. i am starting to dread the long long work days.. sat we ended nearly at 6pm.. tired, for i am not a machine, and there are more worthwhile events in my life.. 9 months have passed in 2007 and i am turning 27 so veri soon.. kinda sad that time is passing me by.. finally got the major pay adjustment i wanted.. the coffers are getting fuller, but nah.. the thought of maintaining jet black hair for the rest of my life is kinda scary.. i wanna do curls with colour, i wanna wear my big big earrings.. oh wellz.. gotta try harder.. else, i may really be struck forever.. ohh...

just opened the doors to the future home on sat.. din noe there was a market so close by and many little shops.. goodie.. lazy moi need not cook if food is easily available.. am starting to like the east and the food options, but i am still a westie at heart.. we've gotta start working on our reno plans soon.. shiacks.. mummie is going on a trip to Africa on Wednesday and i can't help feeling worried, silly old moi..

Gals Nite Out

been so buried in work that i forgot there's a Public Holiday this week. Sometimes i wonder, if you stop to chat with the workmates less, walk around less, maybe productivity would increase.
Oh wellz..

met up with the gals. Irin & An joined us for this round. We met for dinner at Sun with Moon. Everyone seems to be later then usual. normal knock off- meeting up time is now 8-9pm. late dinners. I din want to be the earliest, so i left office at 8. The B said i only needed to hand in that urgent report on friday, first thing in the morn.. hee.. so off for dinner i went..

forgot it was Hui's Hatchday on 31st. We got her a cake from nydc next door. Oreo Cheese. The selection of items was extensive. An, Irin & I chose the same item. Beef & Foie Gras Kamameshi. One of their chef's recomendation. The beef simply melts in your mouth and the foie gras was good. Topped over the steamed rice.. the combi quite goes. Jinny chose the tempura soba. Han had the grilled pork kamameshi. Everything looks yummy. Although I found my sesame five grain soup dessert with rice cake a tad too sweet. Will def bring the dear one here to try out the other items and creative desserts like tofu cheesecake and strawberry redbean pancake..yum!

we went to Merriott for after dinner drinks. Had Hui's cheesecake too, as we were disallowed to consume the cake at the resturant. silly rules. i must say i quite like the lounge there. we most prefer quiet cosy water holes rather than noisy crowded ones. they shared a bottle of red. i had ice latte as i din felt like drinking. Jin's hubby and An's Guang joined us too.

its was kindda funny actually. most of the bunch are up & coming bankers. offshore banking. loans. credit. cash mgt accounts. local vs foreign banks. Hui just had an interview for a marketing position with citi. Means she may become half a banker. Shicks.. that leaves only me, serving the gahmen and getting peanuts. and An, the journalist who is an economist by training. can't deny that banking pays. After all, Investment Bankers are the most highly paid last year. i hope Hui gets the job. it'll mean a huge huge pay jump for her. it also shows the huge pay diff between the public sector and the public sector. many says you serve the public not for the monetary rewards, but somehow you could not help feeling lacking. Bukit Timah addresses and the chi chi life. i will prob only be getting wat Hui stands to get as a starting pay, 10 years down the road. what motivates me? Singapore dreaming? or a meaningful existance with the simple?

this bunch is def diff from my jc group. that bunch is more heartlanderish. the conversation is diff, expectations and outlook too. Just like my soci mates are more into quality of life. maturity of thoughts and the theoratical. the exploration for the defination of society and the deconstruction, construction of self and issues related to the abstruct. totally diff from my econs mates with their dollars and sense. i tread between these groups, yet at times i just wanna struck a balance of all. am i asking for too much? herein lies the dilemma. wat i want out of my life? at times i ponder. The crux is contentment. this i have to search for. silly old me..

The dear one's birthdae

It was literally candle light fried chicken dinner at everyone's fav fast food resturant.

The dear one forgave me for being late. Was struck in office because the system was down. A system that is at the end of its technical life span. Someone was joking that the systen noes we are abandoning it soon.. Oh well.. there goes our movie.

Dun get anything else for him apart from that shirt so long ago. Oh shacks..
Went walking around the estate. Ate snacks. Play with the cute nephew.
Dinner with his family. Cake cutting at his place.
Simple birthday. Diff from the BBQ & Chalet of last year.
Will do something special next year. i promise..
2 days away from work. wow hoo!! tom its work and work again.. ;p

Pay Revision?

woke up to news that there would be pay revisions for fresh grads

what the fishz? it means that that new rookie would be earning more than me?!

after slogging for nearly 3 years, under paid and overwork?

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.................ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........

understand the org may be slow in responding to the changes.. but my patience is running thin.. if there are still not suitable adjustments to our pay, i guess its no great oppt cost to me if i were to start afresh elsewhere..

many in the same batches as us, who were employed in recent years, are stuck in the same situation. having worked for a no of years, if we do not move soon, we are likely to remain stagnant.. in the same job.. and the 'recession' pay we are getting is aggrevating matters in post recession economy..

all things being equal, the oldies have always been paid more, the rookies too, lots more at that.. we are the sandwiched batches, neither here nor there.. victims of circumstances.

haiz.. that said, moving on requires lots of faith, in the ability to find something better.

Melancholic Week

2 deaths in the past week and long long working hours seem to have taken its toll on me..

one an old school mate whom i noe of.. he's a nice chap.. the abruptness of life ..
fate seems cruel sometimes, for he had a bright future.
A freak accident it feels like.
Can't help feeling shivers. For it could be me or anyone else am close to.
If I were to leave, i have anythings i wanna do..and have not done..

the other is the husband of a collegue.
his passing mirrors that of my fav teacher's husband
also no signs and without warning
i should spent my time with my mummy
for one can never predict accurately when a loved one may leave
me mummy laments that she's getting old
i noe her health is not as good as before..
i wanna spent more time with my loved ones.. i really do..

.. hmm.. but my supposedly inefficent self means i have loads of work
and deadlines that i cannot adhere to..
challenging work.. but hard to balance ground operations with staff work at times
we are overly stretched.. there should be more defined jobscopes for us,
the higher mgt tries, i hope..
the only section that works longer than the other sections, due to high cyclic renewals for services.. i think i'm starting to feel inadequte, to dread the crowds..
to fill the expectations and standards labelled on us because of the seniority of our positions
1am sleeping time.. to drag myself out of bed at 6am. 6 days week. yesterday i completely zonked out by 9pm.. after the heavy dinner. Brought work home, but can't seem to make myself work. Slept most of today away.. shaicks..

time is living me..
yet i promise i must treasure my loved ones more,
haiz...

its the dear one's bithday on tuesday..
and i have not planned anything special,
not a good galfreie.............
maybe a short getaway next year..
i promise... really..

A quite nice poem from my current read

Boast of Quietness - Jorge Luis Borges

Writings of light assault the darkness, more prodigious than meteors.
The tall unknowable city takes over the countryside.
Sure of my life and my death, I observe the ambitious and would like to understand them.
Their day is greedy as a lariat in the air.
Their night is a rest from the rage within steel, quick to attack.
They speak of humanity.
My humanity is in the feeling we are the same voices of the same poverty.
They speak of homeland.
My homeland is the rytham of a guitar, a few portraits, an old sword, the willow grove's visible prayer as evening falls.
Time is living me.
More silent than my shadow, I pass through the loftily covetous multitude.
They are indespensable, singular, worthy of tomorrow.
My name is someone and anyone.
I walk slowly, like one who comes from so far away he doesn't expect to arrive.

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Somehow to relate to the emptiness, alienation caused by the paper chase, of the insignificance of thy self in modernisation and globalisation..

Ahem.. Back after a short absence

Din realise that time just flow by.. quite comfy and settled in the new section.. enjoying normal workin hours.. although the hours are long long long.. can't seem to be able to finish my work on time.. and 7pm knock off time is becoming the norm.. i seem to have been buried by the motions of work. No time to smell the roses, to enjoy the musky bleeze after the rain, nice songs that touch me so, and the simple things that i used to enjoy so..

This past one week was pure heaven, my Vietnam trip with the dear one and mama ,and the days of blissful sleep.. strange, that things I used to like, like enthic bags and little stuff, no longer touch me as much as they did during my last trip to HCMC.. rather, it was the simplicity of being able to explore the nooks and crannies of the raw city that tags at my heart.. yes.. 5 months without a break and my travels have left me deviod of the little pleasures i enjoy so much..

That said, I am nevertheless challenged by the work that is thrown to me at the new work unit, the chance to write papers, implement projects, challenge myself for self developement. Many many projects upcoming for the later half of the year and its a challenge to follow rem through. The skills that i will acquire at this work unit is forever mine for keeping.. the little boss is an affable person, but the big boss's moods and tides leave me feeling thrown and beaten. If I can find another job which interests me, i will move, i think... the feeling of inertia scares me.. the knowledge that if i take no action for this year, i will prob be bounded by many factors to stay on this job.. Work life balance? I hope i dun burn out so soon..esp when i clearly do not enjoy certain aspects of the job.. hummp.. piity that i am fairly certain i will do okay well if i stay on...

Next vacation is prob only in Sept, if i am unable to make it for the white water rafting trip to malaysia.. fingers crossed.. and the club med bintan trip in july due to the major project in june.. ;p

Donkey blues?

If Nov was busy busy.. Dec is just yucky at work.. softie moi can't seem to deny all the aunties their leave.. think i overgranted leave.. tits the nature of the work.. in a month where traffic peaks.. it hard for staff to go on leave.. guess its my fault too.. i misculculated and should have been more prudent.. Oh well.. been praying real hard that things will turn out well..think my boss's gonna hit the roof.. hate doing manpower deployment.. yet i wanna go into HR.. silly old moi..

Is there a blanket that i can cover myself with and pretend that nothing happened? Aiz.. 14 more days till the end of my stint.. guess its a good lesson learnt..albeit at a great price.. dun think my apprasial will be that great..hee.. oh well.. hope things will be better in Jan.. new beginnings..new year.. and i asked the dear one.. will i be a failure if i never get promoted in my entire life? and he says.. its okay.. impt is you be good wife! Hee... the girly and slack me simply melted.. but the headstrong me still laments and worries.. my gut feel is that if i stay with the org.. i will prob end up being an average performer.. no passion for the job.. and no guts to move on.. wonder if i will look back in rectrospect 30 years from now and regret not taking action? haiz.. wonder if my investments will reap wonderful returns so that i can retire early and open a cafe..

Not in much of a holiday mood till this crisis is over.. and am still thinking whether i should join Hui and Han in Phuket.. really gotta save..

Time flies

Wow.. before I noe it.. am back from Siem Reap .. when to the co's dnd and had lots of photos taken.. spent nearly a fortune on my hair with rebonding and 5 treatments package course..and even had another mini vacation at Sentosa. Really luv Sokha hotel which I stay in at Siem Reap.. the hotel is new.. the spa is great.. the splurge was worth it mah.. think im becoming addicted to 5 star hotels.. opps.. even Rasa Sentosa which i just stay at on Sentosa was great.. can still remember the yummy strawberries from the breakfast and the platter of kueh which was in the room when we checked it.. and of course.. the breathtaking seaview from our balcony windows and the lavender toiletries provided.. luxury.. hee.. guess occasional spending is food for the soul.. hmm.. can't do it often though.. not good for overall financial health.. ;p

The dear one brought me to Il lido at Sentosa Golf Club for fine Itallian dining.. the meal was my most expensive ever.. but worth it.. We had pan fried groose liver which melts in your mouth.. lobster linguini .. diver scallopes.. beef and chocolate pudding with raspberry sorbet.. the sorbet is simply refreshing.. and my white wine was good too..yum..nearly $150 per pax.. ouch! The poor dear! And he brought me a bottle of Chanel's Chance perfume which i mentioned that i liked.. the silly one.. and a photo book of pictures of us which he made himself..so touched i am.. really.. and of course.. the shiny destinee bling which took most of his bonous.. the silly silly one.. im a lucky gal.. really.. appreciate the effort and thought.. though its a once in the life time thingy.. beautiful memories.. is wat i'll be..

hee... must really save in 2007 .. ;)

Idyllic Days

Woh... Idyllic days.. these past few days.. pretty sure i've gained a few pounds with all that bingeing .. shopping and days of sleeping in..

Finally had my eyebrows trimmed and cutted my fringe.. felt better instantly. Guess often your mood is affected by your perception of self.. especially so for moi.. my sense of self at times is tagged to how good i look or perceive myself to look.. ha ha.. instant gratification.. which is why women are willing to shell out big bucks to maintain themselves.. which is hard.. for the average jane with the average salary.. style and beauty.. needs money.. aiz.. Guess i have to save up some to strighten my hair from my current curly locks.. have decided i look better in straight flat hair.. ha ha.. even my thoughts reflects my idyllic mood ;p

Went to a fantestic korean restaurant called Togi at Chinatown which i will def bring Fen, and the pastries to.. the portions are large.. the side dishes are refillable.. and the pretty lady boss served us our stonepot mixed rice with flare.. plus the price is reasonable.. Yummy.. can't wait to try the ginseng chicken soup on my next visit..

Went to Vivo City and tried out the movie theatre there too.. hee.. still a sucker for any novel or movie that has beautiful wineyards as the backdrop. Though the leading man in A Good Year is not as dashing as Keanu Reeves in A Walk in the Clouds.. but being a wine movie romance.. it'll do.. can't wait for Charlotte's web to be out.. hmm.. tis been a long time since i've watch movies.. and i thought one of my resolutions was to watch more movies?! A good form of escapism from the real world to the reel world.. :p

More shopping tom in my quest to find the perfect dress for my co's DnD at Ritz Carlton. Hope I find something nice with the limited budget that I have.. my upcoming trip to Siem Reap is taking up this whole month's savings.. hiaz.. and i've gotta go on a diet too.. the DnD's nearing.. and i'm still eating and eating.. shaiks........

Just fretting doing nothing

Finally got thru my black Nov... 9 free days.. and my upcoming trip to Siem Reap.. Can't believe its just next week.. the ancient beauty of the Wats in Angkor beckons... although I am never really a fan of Wats.. looking forward to my spa treat too.. although its estimated that the trip will set me back by close to $700.. 3 days 2 nights.. Phew... I gotta take some realli breathtaking photos man..

The dear one nags at me to be more frugal.. i will.. i will.. i promise.. but how's a gal to survive without retail therapy? My shopping list keeps growing by the day instead of my investment portfolio.My second posting is still unknown.. my batch mates are mostly going to welcome travellers from the skies..and I'm in 2 minds abt it.. if i do shift again, the distance will just kill moi.. but there are the monetary perks of being on shift together with the luxury of leisure time.. while going to the headquarters will be good exposure and great for career development.. but i'll be a poor church mouse.. yet the irony is.. the posting could already have been decided by some higher being upon the 9th floor.. just that its not announced yet. Aiz.. all that fretting when i got my posting option form was for naught.. for its just a meaningless paper excerise and my gut feel is that I've not been outstanding enough in my 2 years in the organisation. Hence, the urge to move on.. for a fresh start.. esp when you see your pals shining brightly in their careers or doing something they are passion about.. just can't seem to be passionate abt my job.. dah..

Shaks.. i've gotta snap out of this soon.. for what ever will be, will be. Can't help being demoralized a tat bit by the current state of things..Golly.... really gotta stop worrying abt work for the next 9 days at least.. ;p

5 more Days

5 more days till my long break.. 9 days of vacation leave.. but i must first got thru these 5 days.. a last min emcee assignment when facing any small amt of audience turns me to stone.. my legs to jelly.. oh shit.. wat was i thinking of when i said yes? I should stick to doing something which i my forte..and the national competition on the 10th.. ah.. 5 more long long days.. only saving grace being my meet up session with the gals and the yummy dinner with my collegues..

abit of everything

Just back from my cruise.. tis 4 days of eating and eating.. and slacking.. yummy local food at Penang.. shopping at central festival in Phuket.. for that 4 days, real life fades , together with the worries of work.. time seems suspended.. and leisure becomes the norm..
travel is an escape from established patterns and you rediscover yourself in the process.. somtimes.. you discover that life can be so simple.. and so simple are the happy things in life.. afterall.. everyone wants to be happy..

i suppose i will be a happie happie gal if i learn to not be so harsh on judging myself for every little mistake that i make.. to learn that its actually all right to be yourself.. tis hard.. sometimes to break away from the confines imposed upon you by society.. and life is present day singapore.. is all about climbing the social ladder, getting a good job.. stablity.. establishing a career.. it seems your life is already mapped from birth..and its scary.. how we are part of our social group.. of our generation.. exibiting the same traits.. chasing after the same thing.. Something knocked into us by the education system here? would i be happie being one of those still buried their work after dusk..? i dunnoe..

perhaps i am disheartened.. by the tough requirements of the work place.. a piece of work you submit.. suddenly becomes the focal point.. just because the project has been shortlisted to represent the dept.. and suddenly you get attention from all the big shots.. and everyone wants to add in their opinions and wat not.. on how to improve the project.. when previously it was a forgone conclusion the the project was unlikely to be selected..amd it was a neglected piece of submission.. now its a prestigious thingy and everyone wans us to do our best..
guess i dun take constructive comments easily although i noe i din put in my all on the project..guess i'm afraid to be judged and found lacking.. maybe i really lack the ability to produce fine work.. i dun feel the passion as i use to, in writing my team papers.. perhaps i should develope passion for my work.. perhaps its just me..to be judged as lacking the ability.. or perhaps....... i am my own biggest judge? for i ponder too much over all areas in which i have not done well..over reflect?!

oh well......... enough rumblings.. if i dun live to work but work to live.. whose's to judge me on my short comings? am i a far less better person if i dun climb the corporate ladder or take eeyons to do so? ha ha.. perhaps i am just not running the right race.. for security is def not my forte..

ha ha.. i wanna travel again.. to escape again.. maybe to somewhere else in S.E.A.. where lifes are simpler.. without the complexities that comes with developement.. ;p

Allo 26!!

29th sept..the removal of the little red dot took ten mins.. after the jab i kinda feel nothing.. although i could hear the swlinging of the electric knife cutting at my flash.. the entire surgery was kindda fast and surreal.. my first operation and it was over in a jiffy.. in rectrospect.. the waiting was worse than the actual event.. and i was up and shopping immediately.. splurged on 2 pairs of shoes.. my treat to me self for having survived.. and out tim sum at crystal jade was is good old soul food.. yum.. my chix craws and bittergruad with salted eagg yolks.. lifes great with the removal of the lump .. oh... actually is was more tramatic for my loved ones lah..

had a great time these past few days.. 27th sept.. gelato and pasta at menotti.. forbidden city at esplande.. hee.. jo was great as part of the cast.. i was kindda restless in the first half of the show.. but totally absorb into the story of a concubine who eventually rose to rule china.. my first show atthe esplande.. thanks to the dear one.. his poor pockets are badly burned these past few days.. can't imagine the credit card bills next month..

.. 28th sept.. had dinner with the gals at Aerin's.. the resturant by White Bait and kale's owners.. luved the salad of rocket with sun-dried tomatos and cheese with balsamic vinger dressing.. yummy.. and the mazze platter was nice too.. although my main course of grilled beef with pita bread could have been better.. the mudpie was sinful indulgence..and we blow $150 on the meal.. cheaper than whitebait.. i guess.. catching up with the gals was fun..

.. 30th.. hello 26 and goodbye 25.. its scarey actually.. noeing that the numbers between 30 and 26 are smaller than 25.....the dear naughty boy give me a preszzie.. an anklet.. so pretty with tiny hearts.. woke up late and went shopping.. and dearie treated moi to sizzlers.. hee.. and lots more along the way.. its was a happya day.. work is the furthest thing from my mind these past few days.. yipee...

.. today... the gals came by to visit the post surgery moi.. hee.. aparently i'm a patient newly recoverd.. and they got me fish tonic.. so touched.. and hui's bow tie pasta with cream sauce, porto bello mushrooms was good..hee.. its heart-warming having so many pple who cares abt me..had treat from mum and bro.. and mum's present was a transparent pair of specs.. hope i look good in my new specs.. opps.. its back to work tom.. and worries that i've over indulged for the past few days.. need to lost weight liao.. :)

Just my usual musings

yah... the red dot is still there.. D Day is scheduled for the 29th.. which incidentally I have originally applied for VL.. and my birthday eve.. is gonna be a painful birthday this year..

meet up to shop for han's birthday with hui.. feels great.. the kind of girly chats wif yr fav gal pals..pity i had no time to grab some shoes.. the shoe freak that i am..

attended jaime's wedding at hyatt.. very pretty.. the black tables were kinda cool and the march in by the groom's military pals.. wow.. din know marrying military man has its peaks... Jaime looks every bit the radient bride.. and i'm happy to be with the 97c gang.. we'll be celebrating the golden 10 years next year and golly... we should have a grand celebartion................ everyone's grown up.. and the topics we chat abt has shifted to more adult.. guess its a process very young adult has to go through.. although i believe im still in self denial...

12 more days to my cruise.. can't wait... :)

the Big red dot

A dot kinda spolit all things this week..

It started fom a small dot.. which slowly grow in size..

A visit to the doc ought to have been one time too many..

Now its gonna be a trip to the operating room...

Worries a flutter..

It sets me wondering..

In the peaceful ordinary.. the next few days was wonderfully mapped..
a baby's birthday
a fre's wedding at a top hotel
a musical at esplande
3 days of celebrations for the big 26

Now... what de..

And i ponder... sometimes its better to live life to the fullest

never wonder the "I should, should not"
never wonder the "wat if"........

Fingers crossed..
Pray for me yah....

Time flies

Golly......... its already Sept........ where have the past few months gone? Guess not being able to take leave and having too much ecas at work is kinda overwheming moi...

Gosh.... I'll turn 26 in about 15 days time.. feels kinda ancient... more winkles in the nooks and crannies.. Resolutions aplenty as usual..... I just wanna enjoy life... :my fav sweet talk green tea with jelly.. old chang kee's sardine puff and sotong balls.. plus my current addiction of soya sauce chicken feet.. the dearie always mentions that i have an old auntie's taste buds.. Just gimme my fav food and i'll be a happy gal for the whole day..

Looking forward to the end of the month.. Jaime's wedding..Baby javen's birthday..Forbidden city at esplanade.. meeting up with the girly dearies.. a yearly birthday ritual of renewing the bonds of friendship.. and of course.. celebrating with my froggy prince and family.. yupee.. Can't wait.. time to clear my 20 overdays of leave from last year.. hopefully i'm keping my resolution of enjoying life..... by my definitions... ;p