Donkey blues?

If Nov was busy busy.. Dec is just yucky at work.. softie moi can't seem to deny all the aunties their leave.. think i overgranted leave.. tits the nature of the work.. in a month where traffic peaks.. it hard for staff to go on leave.. guess its my fault too.. i misculculated and should have been more prudent.. Oh well.. been praying real hard that things will turn out well..think my boss's gonna hit the roof.. hate doing manpower deployment.. yet i wanna go into HR.. silly old moi..

Is there a blanket that i can cover myself with and pretend that nothing happened? Aiz.. 14 more days till the end of my stint.. guess its a good lesson learnt..albeit at a great price.. dun think my apprasial will be that great..hee.. oh well.. hope things will be better in Jan.. new beginnings..new year.. and i asked the dear one.. will i be a failure if i never get promoted in my entire life? and he says.. its okay.. impt is you be good wife! Hee... the girly and slack me simply melted.. but the headstrong me still laments and worries.. my gut feel is that if i stay with the org.. i will prob end up being an average performer.. no passion for the job.. and no guts to move on.. wonder if i will look back in rectrospect 30 years from now and regret not taking action? haiz.. wonder if my investments will reap wonderful returns so that i can retire early and open a cafe..

Not in much of a holiday mood till this crisis is over.. and am still thinking whether i should join Hui and Han in Phuket.. really gotta save..