Just back from my cruise.. tis 4 days of eating and eating.. and slacking.. yummy local food at Penang.. shopping at central festival in Phuket.. for that 4 days, real life fades , together with the worries of work.. time seems suspended.. and leisure becomes the norm..
travel is an escape from established patterns and you rediscover yourself in the process.. somtimes.. you discover that life can be so simple.. and so simple are the happy things in life.. afterall.. everyone wants to be happy..
i suppose i will be a happie happie gal if i learn to not be so harsh on judging myself for every little mistake that i make.. to learn that its actually all right to be yourself.. tis hard.. sometimes to break away from the confines imposed upon you by society.. and life is present day singapore.. is all about climbing the social ladder, getting a good job.. stablity.. establishing a career.. it seems your life is already mapped from birth..and its scary.. how we are part of our social group.. of our generation.. exibiting the same traits.. chasing after the same thing.. Something knocked into us by the education system here? would i be happie being one of those still buried their work after dusk..? i dunnoe..
perhaps i am disheartened.. by the tough requirements of the work place.. a piece of work you submit.. suddenly becomes the focal point.. just because the project has been shortlisted to represent the dept.. and suddenly you get attention from all the big shots.. and everyone wants to add in their opinions and wat not.. on how to improve the project.. when previously it was a forgone conclusion the the project was unlikely to be selected..amd it was a neglected piece of submission.. now its a prestigious thingy and everyone wans us to do our best..
guess i dun take constructive comments easily although i noe i din put in my all on the project..guess i'm afraid to be judged and found lacking.. maybe i really lack the ability to produce fine work.. i dun feel the passion as i use to, in writing my team papers.. perhaps i should develope passion for my work.. perhaps its just me..to be judged as lacking the ability.. or perhaps....... i am my own biggest judge? for i ponder too much over all areas in which i have not done well..over reflect?!
oh well......... enough rumblings.. if i dun live to work but work to live.. whose's to judge me on my short comings? am i a far less better person if i dun climb the corporate ladder or take eeyons to do so? ha ha.. perhaps i am just not running the right race.. for security is def not my forte..
ha ha.. i wanna travel again.. to escape again.. maybe to somewhere else in S.E.A.. where lifes are simpler.. without the complexities that comes with developement.. ;p
Saturday, October 14, 2006
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Being a perosn of excellence need not mean that we need to do what others chose to do and found worthy of pursuing - i.e. climbing the corporate ladder.
As long as at the end of the day, we can tell ourselves, with no regrets, that this day is well lived.
We dun just exist. We live our lives.
Doing what we feel we should and providing the quality of work tat we are satisfied with are able to help us live our lives without regrets.
ha ha.. i am pondering.. i must do something i like.. for only den will i excel.. but its hard to leave yr comfort zone and a perm job in this era where perm jobs are hard to come by..
guess its indeed the quality of life that matters.. and the corporate ladder is not for everyone.. ;p
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