Since the dear gal has gotten her own place, we've been hanging out a fair bit at her lovely baroque themed house.Great conversation, free flowing red and white wine paired with cheese and crackers.We've become fans of take-away. Sushi, pizza, simply divine desserts like tiramisu from da palo's.. slurp..
I would say that noisy countdown parties and crowded places no longer appeals to us. Its the passage of time, we have moved past that stage.. for the cosy comfy ambience of jinny's place suits us fine. hee.. and the dear gal has been generously volunteering her place. Guess we'll all take turns to do the hosting when we have our own places.
Tits been a great start to the new year.. and i look forward to more cosy homey gatherings with wonderful company, stimulating conversation, good food in 2008..although there is always the danger of getting too tipsy with wine.. ;p
Sunday, January 06, 2008
Ushering in 2008
We are a week into the new year,
cost of living is increasing with prices of everyday goods increasing
tits a good time for moi to rethink my spending habits..
1. Resturants only on weekdays afternoons (e.g Jake's Place's Set lunches are pretty value for money although we will inevitably end up hunting for resturants on weekends.. haiz )
2. Mass markets brands are value for money. ( The dear says i'll prob still buy my branded bags while he dresses in bossini)
3. Hawker food is yummy if you noe where to find framed makansutra cooks.(But we don't know where to queue..)
4. Home cooked food is best in terms of everything.( The dear says this is true if its his mum's cooking.. ;p)
5. Cosy gatherings at fre's place with great takeaway totally digs. (Spizza does delivery.. hee but that's kinda ex too.. opps)
6.Coupon cutting and buying when there is discounts is not aunty.(If we can find the coupons when we need erm.. )
7. The dear says less holidays means less money spent (which i totally disagree on principle, coz travel is everything to moi)
If we can adhere to the above, i'm sure we will survive rising oil prices.inflation and what not :)
Haiz.. Not much for new year resolutions..
Just to stay healthy
Just for the loved ones to stay healthy
Just for the career path to be smooth
Just to loss some weight and start working out
Just to stay connected with my dearest fres
Just to save more money
Just to add more countries to the travel list
Just to have my own place and a lovely wedding
and to get the elusive driving licence..!
Although thats alot to ask for, yah?
cost of living is increasing with prices of everyday goods increasing
tits a good time for moi to rethink my spending habits..
1. Resturants only on weekdays afternoons (e.g Jake's Place's Set lunches are pretty value for money although we will inevitably end up hunting for resturants on weekends.. haiz )
2. Mass markets brands are value for money. ( The dear says i'll prob still buy my branded bags while he dresses in bossini)
3. Hawker food is yummy if you noe where to find framed makansutra cooks.(But we don't know where to queue..)
4. Home cooked food is best in terms of everything.( The dear says this is true if its his mum's cooking.. ;p)
5. Cosy gatherings at fre's place with great takeaway totally digs. (Spizza does delivery.. hee but that's kinda ex too.. opps)
6.Coupon cutting and buying when there is discounts is not aunty.(If we can find the coupons when we need erm.. )
7. The dear says less holidays means less money spent (which i totally disagree on principle, coz travel is everything to moi)
If we can adhere to the above, i'm sure we will survive rising oil prices.inflation and what not :)
Haiz.. Not much for new year resolutions..
Just to stay healthy
Just for the loved ones to stay healthy
Just for the career path to be smooth
Just to loss some weight and start working out
Just to stay connected with my dearest fres
Just to save more money
Just to add more countries to the travel list
Just to have my own place and a lovely wedding
and to get the elusive driving licence..!
Although thats alot to ask for, yah?
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
2007 in Summary..
tits was a year of a new posting, a new work environment.. alot of work milestones
tits a year of work, late nights, take away lunches and dinner
nothing much to show for the year
nothing much to take away for the year
except for the times i cherish, with my loved ones, my dear dear and my dearest fres
oh, and the 4 weddings and 1 baby birth in dec
2008 will be an eventful year, a year of changes in my life.
2007's simpleness is a blessing in itself, for i am not adaptive to changes.
tits a year of work, late nights, take away lunches and dinner
nothing much to show for the year
nothing much to take away for the year
except for the times i cherish, with my loved ones, my dear dear and my dearest fres
oh, and the 4 weddings and 1 baby birth in dec
2008 will be an eventful year, a year of changes in my life.
2007's simpleness is a blessing in itself, for i am not adaptive to changes.
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Christmas Christmas
its the season for giving and luving..
was great meeting up with the pastries @ irins..
the foods great, but the lovely golden xmas tree with the blinking lights was truely the highlight..not to forget the gift xchange which got everyone swooning over the gifts they got..
i truely luv dec, and Christmas..
the season for luving and sharing..
for meeting up with dear old friends..
more gatherings to come..
i hope next year the new place will be up and blinking shiny from the lights of my very own xmas tree.. :)
was great meeting up with the pastries @ irins..
the foods great, but the lovely golden xmas tree with the blinking lights was truely the highlight..not to forget the gift xchange which got everyone swooning over the gifts they got..
i truely luv dec, and Christmas..
the season for luving and sharing..
for meeting up with dear old friends..
more gatherings to come..
i hope next year the new place will be up and blinking shiny from the lights of my very own xmas tree.. :)
Monday, December 03, 2007
Sweet 3 years
tis our 3rd year anniverasry. time flies. different from the eloborated and well-planned wedding proposal of last year, the day was simple but no less sweet. we are on long leave, which sets the mood. we started the day with gingerbread latte and carrot cake at coffee bean. the dear one got me a pretty mug and a tin of flavored blueberry tea for the office. so sweet of him, for its just wat i wanted. dinner was buffet at changi village hotel.. seafood and bbq buffet at salt water cafe from the vouchers we've won at CVH's wedding show. we stuffed ourselves silly with the oysters and the bbq meats before moving to Hanamco's for after dinner drinks and chips. liked the way the big chunk of ice slowly melts in my calamansi juice, just like the way they serve drinks over at affiliated charlie's corner.
we strolled down the row of pubs and coffee shops. really luv the changi village area with its laidback charm. i find it less pretencious than the holland v area. am starting to enjoy the unfamilar streets in the east side. from the katong, east coast area to the markets next to our new place at bedok. guess the undomesticated moi and the dear one would be eating out fairly often around the area. its a sweetly endearing simple 3rd year celebration. we'll do our weekend getaways when the budget's not so tight for next year's expected expenditures.. ;p
we strolled down the row of pubs and coffee shops. really luv the changi village area with its laidback charm. i find it less pretencious than the holland v area. am starting to enjoy the unfamilar streets in the east side. from the katong, east coast area to the markets next to our new place at bedok. guess the undomesticated moi and the dear one would be eating out fairly often around the area. its a sweetly endearing simple 3rd year celebration. we'll do our weekend getaways when the budget's not so tight for next year's expected expenditures.. ;p
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Paper Writing
writing a paper is like fitting pieces of a jigsaw into a complete picture. Once the smaller pieces have formed, you see the big picture. provided you are a good jigsaw puzzle solver in the first place. am getting rusty. procrastination looms. damn. feels like a uni student again, albeit one with a rusty underused mind.. ;p
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
A well spent Sat..
the dear one and i went for a wedding show at Changi Village Hotel.. imagine my surpise when i saw a familar face in the sea of couples.. yupz. met kian ming and his galfriend. They were checking out the hotel as a ROM venue.. i must say i am very taken with the beautiful unkempt seaside views of the surroundings, the poolside with the fallen leaves. tis would be a great place to get married in..for ROM, for the ballroom is small for the dinner and the dear felt that the dishes were too salty. However, the hotel is really rustic and a good place for a local weekend getaway.
he wants to do a 2 in 1 thingy.. so that we can save the extra money spent for the ROM, oh wellz.. we can, if we can book a venue in 2008 , else, its good to do it on diff days. hmm.. if it were up to moi, i could do with just the ROM and not the dinner, for the fres you invite to the ROM would prob be the ones you value the most.. that said, part of me still wants the relatives to noe that mom mom had brought us up well, in spite of everything.. haiz.. diff decision. oh wellz..
anyways, we managed to sign up for a bridal package at the wedding show.. jinny's advice was not to sign up for the bridal package without previewing the growns actually available at the shop. oh wellz. the dear one and moi are prob to lazy to walk the whole of tanjong pagar. i like the simple and clean design style of the designer, fingers crossed that we did not make a hasty decision. realised that i do not like fancyful eloborated styles but something plain and simple. hopefully things will turn out wellz..
just realised that changi vilage area is a rather vibrant place, with many eating places, pubs and watering holes. the hawker centre has loads of yummy food. we had great fish and chips at Charlie's Corner, a charming place by the side of the hawker centre. the food's great, so i gather we would be making more trips to the area for makan..even if we are not going to pulau ubin.. ;p
he wants to do a 2 in 1 thingy.. so that we can save the extra money spent for the ROM, oh wellz.. we can, if we can book a venue in 2008 , else, its good to do it on diff days. hmm.. if it were up to moi, i could do with just the ROM and not the dinner, for the fres you invite to the ROM would prob be the ones you value the most.. that said, part of me still wants the relatives to noe that mom mom had brought us up well, in spite of everything.. haiz.. diff decision. oh wellz..
anyways, we managed to sign up for a bridal package at the wedding show.. jinny's advice was not to sign up for the bridal package without previewing the growns actually available at the shop. oh wellz. the dear one and moi are prob to lazy to walk the whole of tanjong pagar. i like the simple and clean design style of the designer, fingers crossed that we did not make a hasty decision. realised that i do not like fancyful eloborated styles but something plain and simple. hopefully things will turn out wellz..
just realised that changi vilage area is a rather vibrant place, with many eating places, pubs and watering holes. the hawker centre has loads of yummy food. we had great fish and chips at Charlie's Corner, a charming place by the side of the hawker centre. the food's great, so i gather we would be making more trips to the area for makan..even if we are not going to pulau ubin.. ;p
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Childhood Memories
Bittersweet.. its the first time after so long that he peeled prawns for me. in the many years that followed, i have come to not expect anything from him. The cooking style has changed, or so he claimed. We never used to have fish and prawns when we lived there. it was always only mommie who cooked the good stuff for us. the steam fish, prawns , veg and soup which he cooked was meant as an avenue he showed affection and care for us, the way the older generation expressed themselves. An elaborated meal by his standards..
Having a meal there, at the same home of yester years.. mixed emotions. for we have betrayed her, her love and her unconditional giving to us both by having a meal with him. but he will always be linked to us both. we have moved far far away with the passing of time but the locked memories of the past resurfaced yesterday.. in the familar place i used to call home. the person whom should have been part of my life and bros. he has aged significantly. it takes time to mend broken bridges, for he has been absent from a major part of our growing up years. its not easy, and the guilt at betraying mommie weighs greatly on moi.
He commented that he was the one who cared for us when we were younger, when mom mom cared only for other things. its the self delusion of an elderly person? i dun noe and dun wanna dwell too much into the past, for i have moved on and so have bro. no one is wrong in such matters, he has his flaws and to moi, mom mom is the person who brought me up. but, he too.. in the gap years that mom mom lived elsewhere. Its too late to comment on what has passed, whose faults it was.
Mixed feelings. Sadness.. bittersweet..for in the many years that followed, we had taken him completely out of our lives. its not easily to establish relationships, even harder to mend broken ones. but we are trying.. for i noe he cared deeply for bro and bro does care for him too. He has also moved on , his is a simple life with a new partner that suits him. am glad that he has someone who loves him and takes care of him. at least he is not a lonely man. for we can only see him occassionally. i dread breaking mom mom's heart, but he is kin too.. and an old man trying to find back his children. whatever wrong doings in the past, is past and no one's fault. hmm.. an awkard relationship this is.
Having a meal there, at the same home of yester years.. mixed emotions. for we have betrayed her, her love and her unconditional giving to us both by having a meal with him. but he will always be linked to us both. we have moved far far away with the passing of time but the locked memories of the past resurfaced yesterday.. in the familar place i used to call home. the person whom should have been part of my life and bros. he has aged significantly. it takes time to mend broken bridges, for he has been absent from a major part of our growing up years. its not easy, and the guilt at betraying mommie weighs greatly on moi.
He commented that he was the one who cared for us when we were younger, when mom mom cared only for other things. its the self delusion of an elderly person? i dun noe and dun wanna dwell too much into the past, for i have moved on and so have bro. no one is wrong in such matters, he has his flaws and to moi, mom mom is the person who brought me up. but, he too.. in the gap years that mom mom lived elsewhere. Its too late to comment on what has passed, whose faults it was.
Mixed feelings. Sadness.. bittersweet..for in the many years that followed, we had taken him completely out of our lives. its not easily to establish relationships, even harder to mend broken ones. but we are trying.. for i noe he cared deeply for bro and bro does care for him too. He has also moved on , his is a simple life with a new partner that suits him. am glad that he has someone who loves him and takes care of him. at least he is not a lonely man. for we can only see him occassionally. i dread breaking mom mom's heart, but he is kin too.. and an old man trying to find back his children. whatever wrong doings in the past, is past and no one's fault. hmm.. an awkard relationship this is.
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Moving On?!
today's peaceful crowd at the workplace is an unusual sight in the 9 months i have been at the unit. i left around 730 with the dear one, for sushi was going cheap cheap at sakae.. and auntie moi just gotta have my sushi , yah! feels good to have time to do some blogging, reading of blogs.
7pm knock off timing.. the endless crowd with their expectations. i just came back after a week away for an off-site event, yet.. i am starting to dread the long long work days.. sat we ended nearly at 6pm.. tired, for i am not a machine, and there are more worthwhile events in my life.. 9 months have passed in 2007 and i am turning 27 so veri soon.. kinda sad that time is passing me by.. finally got the major pay adjustment i wanted.. the coffers are getting fuller, but nah.. the thought of maintaining jet black hair for the rest of my life is kinda scary.. i wanna do curls with colour, i wanna wear my big big earrings.. oh wellz.. gotta try harder.. else, i may really be struck forever.. ohh...
just opened the doors to the future home on sat.. din noe there was a market so close by and many little shops.. goodie.. lazy moi need not cook if food is easily available.. am starting to like the east and the food options, but i am still a westie at heart.. we've gotta start working on our reno plans soon.. shiacks.. mummie is going on a trip to Africa on Wednesday and i can't help feeling worried, silly old moi..
7pm knock off timing.. the endless crowd with their expectations. i just came back after a week away for an off-site event, yet.. i am starting to dread the long long work days.. sat we ended nearly at 6pm.. tired, for i am not a machine, and there are more worthwhile events in my life.. 9 months have passed in 2007 and i am turning 27 so veri soon.. kinda sad that time is passing me by.. finally got the major pay adjustment i wanted.. the coffers are getting fuller, but nah.. the thought of maintaining jet black hair for the rest of my life is kinda scary.. i wanna do curls with colour, i wanna wear my big big earrings.. oh wellz.. gotta try harder.. else, i may really be struck forever.. ohh...
just opened the doors to the future home on sat.. din noe there was a market so close by and many little shops.. goodie.. lazy moi need not cook if food is easily available.. am starting to like the east and the food options, but i am still a westie at heart.. we've gotta start working on our reno plans soon.. shiacks.. mummie is going on a trip to Africa on Wednesday and i can't help feeling worried, silly old moi..
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Gals Nite Out
been so buried in work that i forgot there's a Public Holiday this week. Sometimes i wonder, if you stop to chat with the workmates less, walk around less, maybe productivity would increase.
Oh wellz..
met up with the gals. Irin & An joined us for this round. We met for dinner at Sun with Moon. Everyone seems to be later then usual. normal knock off- meeting up time is now 8-9pm. late dinners. I din want to be the earliest, so i left office at 8. The B said i only needed to hand in that urgent report on friday, first thing in the morn.. hee.. so off for dinner i went..
forgot it was Hui's Hatchday on 31st. We got her a cake from nydc next door. Oreo Cheese. The selection of items was extensive. An, Irin & I chose the same item. Beef & Foie Gras Kamameshi. One of their chef's recomendation. The beef simply melts in your mouth and the foie gras was good. Topped over the steamed rice.. the combi quite goes. Jinny chose the tempura soba. Han had the grilled pork kamameshi. Everything looks yummy. Although I found my sesame five grain soup dessert with rice cake a tad too sweet. Will def bring the dear one here to try out the other items and creative desserts like tofu cheesecake and strawberry redbean pancake..yum!
we went to Merriott for after dinner drinks. Had Hui's cheesecake too, as we were disallowed to consume the cake at the resturant. silly rules. i must say i quite like the lounge there. we most prefer quiet cosy water holes rather than noisy crowded ones. they shared a bottle of red. i had ice latte as i din felt like drinking. Jin's hubby and An's Guang joined us too.
its was kindda funny actually. most of the bunch are up & coming bankers. offshore banking. loans. credit. cash mgt accounts. local vs foreign banks. Hui just had an interview for a marketing position with citi. Means she may become half a banker. Shicks.. that leaves only me, serving the gahmen and getting peanuts. and An, the journalist who is an economist by training. can't deny that banking pays. After all, Investment Bankers are the most highly paid last year. i hope Hui gets the job. it'll mean a huge huge pay jump for her. it also shows the huge pay diff between the public sector and the public sector. many says you serve the public not for the monetary rewards, but somehow you could not help feeling lacking. Bukit Timah addresses and the chi chi life. i will prob only be getting wat Hui stands to get as a starting pay, 10 years down the road. what motivates me? Singapore dreaming? or a meaningful existance with the simple?
this bunch is def diff from my jc group. that bunch is more heartlanderish. the conversation is diff, expectations and outlook too. Just like my soci mates are more into quality of life. maturity of thoughts and the theoratical. the exploration for the defination of society and the deconstruction, construction of self and issues related to the abstruct. totally diff from my econs mates with their dollars and sense. i tread between these groups, yet at times i just wanna struck a balance of all. am i asking for too much? herein lies the dilemma. wat i want out of my life? at times i ponder. The crux is contentment. this i have to search for. silly old me..
Oh wellz..
met up with the gals. Irin & An joined us for this round. We met for dinner at Sun with Moon. Everyone seems to be later then usual. normal knock off- meeting up time is now 8-9pm. late dinners. I din want to be the earliest, so i left office at 8. The B said i only needed to hand in that urgent report on friday, first thing in the morn.. hee.. so off for dinner i went..
forgot it was Hui's Hatchday on 31st. We got her a cake from nydc next door. Oreo Cheese. The selection of items was extensive. An, Irin & I chose the same item. Beef & Foie Gras Kamameshi. One of their chef's recomendation. The beef simply melts in your mouth and the foie gras was good. Topped over the steamed rice.. the combi quite goes. Jinny chose the tempura soba. Han had the grilled pork kamameshi. Everything looks yummy. Although I found my sesame five grain soup dessert with rice cake a tad too sweet. Will def bring the dear one here to try out the other items and creative desserts like tofu cheesecake and strawberry redbean pancake..yum!
we went to Merriott for after dinner drinks. Had Hui's cheesecake too, as we were disallowed to consume the cake at the resturant. silly rules. i must say i quite like the lounge there. we most prefer quiet cosy water holes rather than noisy crowded ones. they shared a bottle of red. i had ice latte as i din felt like drinking. Jin's hubby and An's Guang joined us too.
its was kindda funny actually. most of the bunch are up & coming bankers. offshore banking. loans. credit. cash mgt accounts. local vs foreign banks. Hui just had an interview for a marketing position with citi. Means she may become half a banker. Shicks.. that leaves only me, serving the gahmen and getting peanuts. and An, the journalist who is an economist by training. can't deny that banking pays. After all, Investment Bankers are the most highly paid last year. i hope Hui gets the job. it'll mean a huge huge pay jump for her. it also shows the huge pay diff between the public sector and the public sector. many says you serve the public not for the monetary rewards, but somehow you could not help feeling lacking. Bukit Timah addresses and the chi chi life. i will prob only be getting wat Hui stands to get as a starting pay, 10 years down the road. what motivates me? Singapore dreaming? or a meaningful existance with the simple?
this bunch is def diff from my jc group. that bunch is more heartlanderish. the conversation is diff, expectations and outlook too. Just like my soci mates are more into quality of life. maturity of thoughts and the theoratical. the exploration for the defination of society and the deconstruction, construction of self and issues related to the abstruct. totally diff from my econs mates with their dollars and sense. i tread between these groups, yet at times i just wanna struck a balance of all. am i asking for too much? herein lies the dilemma. wat i want out of my life? at times i ponder. The crux is contentment. this i have to search for. silly old me..
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
The dear one's birthdae
It was literally candle light fried chicken dinner at everyone's fav fast food resturant.
The dear one forgave me for being late. Was struck in office because the system was down. A system that is at the end of its technical life span. Someone was joking that the systen noes we are abandoning it soon.. Oh well.. there goes our movie.
Dun get anything else for him apart from that shirt so long ago. Oh shacks..
Went walking around the estate. Ate snacks. Play with the cute nephew.
Dinner with his family. Cake cutting at his place.
Simple birthday. Diff from the BBQ & Chalet of last year.
Will do something special next year. i promise..
2 days away from work. wow hoo!! tom its work and work again.. ;p
The dear one forgave me for being late. Was struck in office because the system was down. A system that is at the end of its technical life span. Someone was joking that the systen noes we are abandoning it soon.. Oh well.. there goes our movie.
Dun get anything else for him apart from that shirt so long ago. Oh shacks..
Went walking around the estate. Ate snacks. Play with the cute nephew.
Dinner with his family. Cake cutting at his place.
Simple birthday. Diff from the BBQ & Chalet of last year.
Will do something special next year. i promise..
2 days away from work. wow hoo!! tom its work and work again.. ;p
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Pay Revision?
woke up to news that there would be pay revisions for fresh grads
what the fishz? it means that that new rookie would be earning more than me?!
after slogging for nearly 3 years, under paid and overwork?
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.................ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........
understand the org may be slow in responding to the changes.. but my patience is running thin.. if there are still not suitable adjustments to our pay, i guess its no great oppt cost to me if i were to start afresh elsewhere..
many in the same batches as us, who were employed in recent years, are stuck in the same situation. having worked for a no of years, if we do not move soon, we are likely to remain stagnant.. in the same job.. and the 'recession' pay we are getting is aggrevating matters in post recession economy..
all things being equal, the oldies have always been paid more, the rookies too, lots more at that.. we are the sandwiched batches, neither here nor there.. victims of circumstances.
haiz.. that said, moving on requires lots of faith, in the ability to find something better.
what the fishz? it means that that new rookie would be earning more than me?!
after slogging for nearly 3 years, under paid and overwork?
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.................ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........
understand the org may be slow in responding to the changes.. but my patience is running thin.. if there are still not suitable adjustments to our pay, i guess its no great oppt cost to me if i were to start afresh elsewhere..
many in the same batches as us, who were employed in recent years, are stuck in the same situation. having worked for a no of years, if we do not move soon, we are likely to remain stagnant.. in the same job.. and the 'recession' pay we are getting is aggrevating matters in post recession economy..
all things being equal, the oldies have always been paid more, the rookies too, lots more at that.. we are the sandwiched batches, neither here nor there.. victims of circumstances.
haiz.. that said, moving on requires lots of faith, in the ability to find something better.
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Melancholic Week
2 deaths in the past week and long long working hours seem to have taken its toll on me..
one an old school mate whom i noe of.. he's a nice chap.. the abruptness of life ..
fate seems cruel sometimes, for he had a bright future.
A freak accident it feels like.
Can't help feeling shivers. For it could be me or anyone else am close to.
If I were to leave, i have anythings i wanna do..and have not done..
the other is the husband of a collegue.
his passing mirrors that of my fav teacher's husband
also no signs and without warning
i should spent my time with my mummy
for one can never predict accurately when a loved one may leave
me mummy laments that she's getting old
i noe her health is not as good as before..
i wanna spent more time with my loved ones.. i really do..
.. hmm.. but my supposedly inefficent self means i have loads of work
and deadlines that i cannot adhere to..
challenging work.. but hard to balance ground operations with staff work at times
we are overly stretched.. there should be more defined jobscopes for us,
the higher mgt tries, i hope..
the only section that works longer than the other sections, due to high cyclic renewals for services.. i think i'm starting to feel inadequte, to dread the crowds..
to fill the expectations and standards labelled on us because of the seniority of our positions
1am sleeping time.. to drag myself out of bed at 6am. 6 days week. yesterday i completely zonked out by 9pm.. after the heavy dinner. Brought work home, but can't seem to make myself work. Slept most of today away.. shaicks..
time is living me..
yet i promise i must treasure my loved ones more,
haiz...
its the dear one's bithday on tuesday..
and i have not planned anything special,
not a good galfreie.............
maybe a short getaway next year..
i promise... really..
one an old school mate whom i noe of.. he's a nice chap.. the abruptness of life ..
fate seems cruel sometimes, for he had a bright future.
A freak accident it feels like.
Can't help feeling shivers. For it could be me or anyone else am close to.
If I were to leave, i have anythings i wanna do..and have not done..
the other is the husband of a collegue.
his passing mirrors that of my fav teacher's husband
also no signs and without warning
i should spent my time with my mummy
for one can never predict accurately when a loved one may leave
me mummy laments that she's getting old
i noe her health is not as good as before..
i wanna spent more time with my loved ones.. i really do..
.. hmm.. but my supposedly inefficent self means i have loads of work
and deadlines that i cannot adhere to..
challenging work.. but hard to balance ground operations with staff work at times
we are overly stretched.. there should be more defined jobscopes for us,
the higher mgt tries, i hope..
the only section that works longer than the other sections, due to high cyclic renewals for services.. i think i'm starting to feel inadequte, to dread the crowds..
to fill the expectations and standards labelled on us because of the seniority of our positions
1am sleeping time.. to drag myself out of bed at 6am. 6 days week. yesterday i completely zonked out by 9pm.. after the heavy dinner. Brought work home, but can't seem to make myself work. Slept most of today away.. shaicks..
time is living me..
yet i promise i must treasure my loved ones more,
haiz...
its the dear one's bithday on tuesday..
and i have not planned anything special,
not a good galfreie.............
maybe a short getaway next year..
i promise... really..
Sunday, May 13, 2007
A quite nice poem from my current read
Boast of Quietness - Jorge Luis Borges
Writings of light assault the darkness, more prodigious than meteors.
The tall unknowable city takes over the countryside.
Sure of my life and my death, I observe the ambitious and would like to understand them.
Their day is greedy as a lariat in the air.
Their night is a rest from the rage within steel, quick to attack.
They speak of humanity.
My humanity is in the feeling we are the same voices of the same poverty.
They speak of homeland.
My homeland is the rytham of a guitar, a few portraits, an old sword, the willow grove's visible prayer as evening falls.
Time is living me.
More silent than my shadow, I pass through the loftily covetous multitude.
They are indespensable, singular, worthy of tomorrow.
My name is someone and anyone.
I walk slowly, like one who comes from so far away he doesn't expect to arrive.
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Somehow to relate to the emptiness, alienation caused by the paper chase, of the insignificance of thy self in modernisation and globalisation..
Writings of light assault the darkness, more prodigious than meteors.
The tall unknowable city takes over the countryside.
Sure of my life and my death, I observe the ambitious and would like to understand them.
Their day is greedy as a lariat in the air.
Their night is a rest from the rage within steel, quick to attack.
They speak of humanity.
My humanity is in the feeling we are the same voices of the same poverty.
They speak of homeland.
My homeland is the rytham of a guitar, a few portraits, an old sword, the willow grove's visible prayer as evening falls.
Time is living me.
More silent than my shadow, I pass through the loftily covetous multitude.
They are indespensable, singular, worthy of tomorrow.
My name is someone and anyone.
I walk slowly, like one who comes from so far away he doesn't expect to arrive.
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Somehow to relate to the emptiness, alienation caused by the paper chase, of the insignificance of thy self in modernisation and globalisation..
Ahem.. Back after a short absence
Din realise that time just flow by.. quite comfy and settled in the new section.. enjoying normal workin hours.. although the hours are long long long.. can't seem to be able to finish my work on time.. and 7pm knock off time is becoming the norm.. i seem to have been buried by the motions of work. No time to smell the roses, to enjoy the musky bleeze after the rain, nice songs that touch me so, and the simple things that i used to enjoy so..
This past one week was pure heaven, my Vietnam trip with the dear one and mama ,and the days of blissful sleep.. strange, that things I used to like, like enthic bags and little stuff, no longer touch me as much as they did during my last trip to HCMC.. rather, it was the simplicity of being able to explore the nooks and crannies of the raw city that tags at my heart.. yes.. 5 months without a break and my travels have left me deviod of the little pleasures i enjoy so much..
That said, I am nevertheless challenged by the work that is thrown to me at the new work unit, the chance to write papers, implement projects, challenge myself for self developement. Many many projects upcoming for the later half of the year and its a challenge to follow rem through. The skills that i will acquire at this work unit is forever mine for keeping.. the little boss is an affable person, but the big boss's moods and tides leave me feeling thrown and beaten. If I can find another job which interests me, i will move, i think... the feeling of inertia scares me.. the knowledge that if i take no action for this year, i will prob be bounded by many factors to stay on this job.. Work life balance? I hope i dun burn out so soon..esp when i clearly do not enjoy certain aspects of the job.. hummp.. piity that i am fairly certain i will do okay well if i stay on...
Next vacation is prob only in Sept, if i am unable to make it for the white water rafting trip to malaysia.. fingers crossed.. and the club med bintan trip in july due to the major project in june.. ;p
This past one week was pure heaven, my Vietnam trip with the dear one and mama ,and the days of blissful sleep.. strange, that things I used to like, like enthic bags and little stuff, no longer touch me as much as they did during my last trip to HCMC.. rather, it was the simplicity of being able to explore the nooks and crannies of the raw city that tags at my heart.. yes.. 5 months without a break and my travels have left me deviod of the little pleasures i enjoy so much..
That said, I am nevertheless challenged by the work that is thrown to me at the new work unit, the chance to write papers, implement projects, challenge myself for self developement. Many many projects upcoming for the later half of the year and its a challenge to follow rem through. The skills that i will acquire at this work unit is forever mine for keeping.. the little boss is an affable person, but the big boss's moods and tides leave me feeling thrown and beaten. If I can find another job which interests me, i will move, i think... the feeling of inertia scares me.. the knowledge that if i take no action for this year, i will prob be bounded by many factors to stay on this job.. Work life balance? I hope i dun burn out so soon..esp when i clearly do not enjoy certain aspects of the job.. hummp.. piity that i am fairly certain i will do okay well if i stay on...
Next vacation is prob only in Sept, if i am unable to make it for the white water rafting trip to malaysia.. fingers crossed.. and the club med bintan trip in july due to the major project in june.. ;p
Friday, December 15, 2006
Donkey blues?
If Nov was busy busy.. Dec is just yucky at work.. softie moi can't seem to deny all the aunties their leave.. think i overgranted leave.. tits the nature of the work.. in a month where traffic peaks.. it hard for staff to go on leave.. guess its my fault too.. i misculculated and should have been more prudent.. Oh well.. been praying real hard that things will turn out well..think my boss's gonna hit the roof.. hate doing manpower deployment.. yet i wanna go into HR.. silly old moi..
Is there a blanket that i can cover myself with and pretend that nothing happened? Aiz.. 14 more days till the end of my stint.. guess its a good lesson learnt..albeit at a great price.. dun think my apprasial will be that great..hee.. oh well.. hope things will be better in Jan.. new beginnings..new year.. and i asked the dear one.. will i be a failure if i never get promoted in my entire life? and he says.. its okay.. impt is you be good wife! Hee... the girly and slack me simply melted.. but the headstrong me still laments and worries.. my gut feel is that if i stay with the org.. i will prob end up being an average performer.. no passion for the job.. and no guts to move on.. wonder if i will look back in rectrospect 30 years from now and regret not taking action? haiz.. wonder if my investments will reap wonderful returns so that i can retire early and open a cafe..
Not in much of a holiday mood till this crisis is over.. and am still thinking whether i should join Hui and Han in Phuket.. really gotta save..
Is there a blanket that i can cover myself with and pretend that nothing happened? Aiz.. 14 more days till the end of my stint.. guess its a good lesson learnt..albeit at a great price.. dun think my apprasial will be that great..hee.. oh well.. hope things will be better in Jan.. new beginnings..new year.. and i asked the dear one.. will i be a failure if i never get promoted in my entire life? and he says.. its okay.. impt is you be good wife! Hee... the girly and slack me simply melted.. but the headstrong me still laments and worries.. my gut feel is that if i stay with the org.. i will prob end up being an average performer.. no passion for the job.. and no guts to move on.. wonder if i will look back in rectrospect 30 years from now and regret not taking action? haiz.. wonder if my investments will reap wonderful returns so that i can retire early and open a cafe..
Not in much of a holiday mood till this crisis is over.. and am still thinking whether i should join Hui and Han in Phuket.. really gotta save..
Sunday, December 03, 2006
Time flies
Wow.. before I noe it.. am back from Siem Reap .. when to the co's dnd and had lots of photos taken.. spent nearly a fortune on my hair with rebonding and 5 treatments package course..and even had another mini vacation at Sentosa. Really luv Sokha hotel which I stay in at Siem Reap.. the hotel is new.. the spa is great.. the splurge was worth it mah.. think im becoming addicted to 5 star hotels.. opps.. even Rasa Sentosa which i just stay at on Sentosa was great.. can still remember the yummy strawberries from the breakfast and the platter of kueh which was in the room when we checked it.. and of course.. the breathtaking seaview from our balcony windows and the lavender toiletries provided.. luxury.. hee.. guess occasional spending is food for the soul.. hmm.. can't do it often though.. not good for overall financial health.. ;p
The dear one brought me to Il lido at Sentosa Golf Club for fine Itallian dining.. the meal was my most expensive ever.. but worth it.. We had pan fried groose liver which melts in your mouth.. lobster linguini .. diver scallopes.. beef and chocolate pudding with raspberry sorbet.. the sorbet is simply refreshing.. and my white wine was good too..yum..nearly $150 per pax.. ouch! The poor dear! And he brought me a bottle of Chanel's Chance perfume which i mentioned that i liked.. the silly one.. and a photo book of pictures of us which he made himself..so touched i am.. really.. and of course.. the shiny destinee bling which took most of his bonous.. the silly silly one.. im a lucky gal.. really.. appreciate the effort and thought.. though its a once in the life time thingy.. beautiful memories.. is wat i'll be..
hee... must really save in 2007 .. ;)
The dear one brought me to Il lido at Sentosa Golf Club for fine Itallian dining.. the meal was my most expensive ever.. but worth it.. We had pan fried groose liver which melts in your mouth.. lobster linguini .. diver scallopes.. beef and chocolate pudding with raspberry sorbet.. the sorbet is simply refreshing.. and my white wine was good too..yum..nearly $150 per pax.. ouch! The poor dear! And he brought me a bottle of Chanel's Chance perfume which i mentioned that i liked.. the silly one.. and a photo book of pictures of us which he made himself..so touched i am.. really.. and of course.. the shiny destinee bling which took most of his bonous.. the silly silly one.. im a lucky gal.. really.. appreciate the effort and thought.. though its a once in the life time thingy.. beautiful memories.. is wat i'll be..
hee... must really save in 2007 .. ;)
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Idyllic Days
Woh... Idyllic days.. these past few days.. pretty sure i've gained a few pounds with all that bingeing .. shopping and days of sleeping in..
Finally had my eyebrows trimmed and cutted my fringe.. felt better instantly. Guess often your mood is affected by your perception of self.. especially so for moi.. my sense of self at times is tagged to how good i look or perceive myself to look.. ha ha.. instant gratification.. which is why women are willing to shell out big bucks to maintain themselves.. which is hard.. for the average jane with the average salary.. style and beauty.. needs money.. aiz.. Guess i have to save up some to strighten my hair from my current curly locks.. have decided i look better in straight flat hair.. ha ha.. even my thoughts reflects my idyllic mood ;p
Went to a fantestic korean restaurant called Togi at Chinatown which i will def bring Fen, and the pastries to.. the portions are large.. the side dishes are refillable.. and the pretty lady boss served us our stonepot mixed rice with flare.. plus the price is reasonable.. Yummy.. can't wait to try the ginseng chicken soup on my next visit..
Went to Vivo City and tried out the movie theatre there too.. hee.. still a sucker for any novel or movie that has beautiful wineyards as the backdrop. Though the leading man in A Good Year is not as dashing as Keanu Reeves in A Walk in the Clouds.. but being a wine movie romance.. it'll do.. can't wait for Charlotte's web to be out.. hmm.. tis been a long time since i've watch movies.. and i thought one of my resolutions was to watch more movies?! A good form of escapism from the real world to the reel world.. :p
More shopping tom in my quest to find the perfect dress for my co's DnD at Ritz Carlton. Hope I find something nice with the limited budget that I have.. my upcoming trip to Siem Reap is taking up this whole month's savings.. hiaz.. and i've gotta go on a diet too.. the DnD's nearing.. and i'm still eating and eating.. shaiks........
Finally had my eyebrows trimmed and cutted my fringe.. felt better instantly. Guess often your mood is affected by your perception of self.. especially so for moi.. my sense of self at times is tagged to how good i look or perceive myself to look.. ha ha.. instant gratification.. which is why women are willing to shell out big bucks to maintain themselves.. which is hard.. for the average jane with the average salary.. style and beauty.. needs money.. aiz.. Guess i have to save up some to strighten my hair from my current curly locks.. have decided i look better in straight flat hair.. ha ha.. even my thoughts reflects my idyllic mood ;p
Went to a fantestic korean restaurant called Togi at Chinatown which i will def bring Fen, and the pastries to.. the portions are large.. the side dishes are refillable.. and the pretty lady boss served us our stonepot mixed rice with flare.. plus the price is reasonable.. Yummy.. can't wait to try the ginseng chicken soup on my next visit..
Went to Vivo City and tried out the movie theatre there too.. hee.. still a sucker for any novel or movie that has beautiful wineyards as the backdrop. Though the leading man in A Good Year is not as dashing as Keanu Reeves in A Walk in the Clouds.. but being a wine movie romance.. it'll do.. can't wait for Charlotte's web to be out.. hmm.. tis been a long time since i've watch movies.. and i thought one of my resolutions was to watch more movies?! A good form of escapism from the real world to the reel world.. :p
More shopping tom in my quest to find the perfect dress for my co's DnD at Ritz Carlton. Hope I find something nice with the limited budget that I have.. my upcoming trip to Siem Reap is taking up this whole month's savings.. hiaz.. and i've gotta go on a diet too.. the DnD's nearing.. and i'm still eating and eating.. shaiks........
Friday, November 10, 2006
Just fretting doing nothing
Finally got thru my black Nov... 9 free days.. and my upcoming trip to Siem Reap.. Can't believe its just next week.. the ancient beauty of the Wats in Angkor beckons... although I am never really a fan of Wats.. looking forward to my spa treat too.. although its estimated that the trip will set me back by close to $700.. 3 days 2 nights.. Phew... I gotta take some realli breathtaking photos man..
The dear one nags at me to be more frugal.. i will.. i will.. i promise.. but how's a gal to survive without retail therapy? My shopping list keeps growing by the day instead of my investment portfolio.My second posting is still unknown.. my batch mates are mostly going to welcome travellers from the skies..and I'm in 2 minds abt it.. if i do shift again, the distance will just kill moi.. but there are the monetary perks of being on shift together with the luxury of leisure time.. while going to the headquarters will be good exposure and great for career development.. but i'll be a poor church mouse.. yet the irony is.. the posting could already have been decided by some higher being upon the 9th floor.. just that its not announced yet. Aiz.. all that fretting when i got my posting option form was for naught.. for its just a meaningless paper excerise and my gut feel is that I've not been outstanding enough in my 2 years in the organisation. Hence, the urge to move on.. for a fresh start.. esp when you see your pals shining brightly in their careers or doing something they are passion about.. just can't seem to be passionate abt my job.. dah..
Shaks.. i've gotta snap out of this soon.. for what ever will be, will be. Can't help being demoralized a tat bit by the current state of things..Golly.... really gotta stop worrying abt work for the next 9 days at least.. ;p
The dear one nags at me to be more frugal.. i will.. i will.. i promise.. but how's a gal to survive without retail therapy? My shopping list keeps growing by the day instead of my investment portfolio.My second posting is still unknown.. my batch mates are mostly going to welcome travellers from the skies..and I'm in 2 minds abt it.. if i do shift again, the distance will just kill moi.. but there are the monetary perks of being on shift together with the luxury of leisure time.. while going to the headquarters will be good exposure and great for career development.. but i'll be a poor church mouse.. yet the irony is.. the posting could already have been decided by some higher being upon the 9th floor.. just that its not announced yet. Aiz.. all that fretting when i got my posting option form was for naught.. for its just a meaningless paper excerise and my gut feel is that I've not been outstanding enough in my 2 years in the organisation. Hence, the urge to move on.. for a fresh start.. esp when you see your pals shining brightly in their careers or doing something they are passion about.. just can't seem to be passionate abt my job.. dah..
Shaks.. i've gotta snap out of this soon.. for what ever will be, will be. Can't help being demoralized a tat bit by the current state of things..Golly.... really gotta stop worrying abt work for the next 9 days at least.. ;p
Sunday, November 05, 2006
5 more Days
5 more days till my long break.. 9 days of vacation leave.. but i must first got thru these 5 days.. a last min emcee assignment when facing any small amt of audience turns me to stone.. my legs to jelly.. oh shit.. wat was i thinking of when i said yes? I should stick to doing something which i my forte..and the national competition on the 10th.. ah.. 5 more long long days.. only saving grace being my meet up session with the gals and the yummy dinner with my collegues..
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