Work and Play

Its been nearly 2 mths since my posting at the checkpts..seems like i'm truely a slow learner. I still make the most unforgivable mistakes..makes me ponder..am i really suited for this job? Or am i not making enough effort? Neber one to do many things concurrently..i guess i will have to learn to cope, after all, its my bread and butter here... and the organization is so small and compertitive.

Time seems to fly..feb is ending.. and i seem not to have acheievd much in this new year.. no time to watch my Vcds..to excersie (or am i just lazy..) ..and to learn driving.. still remb last time this year i was struggling wif my thesis..how fast everything changes. feb certaintly has its wonderful moments..v day was great for i apprecaite the effort and thought put in.. although i was working on the day itself.. Shift work can truely be quite damaging on sleeping patterns..for i feel myself sleeping more and more.. looking forward to mar..for i finally get to take a short holidae..oh well..when can i take a full fledged one?!.. Got a presenation tom..Sianz .. and thoughts on my upcoming Law exam in Apr..i thought i have already said goodbye to my study days?!

work work and more work..

Just got my uniform altered recently..quite pleased to hear lots of compliments frm collegues that i look smart in blue.. overall the uniform is still too big for me and my pants are still too auntie.. arh.. have to wear pants on my nite shift soon.. sad..i still dun understand how a product that is tailored and supposed to be made according to my measurements be so unfitting.. wat is the rational in having it tailored if i have to end up getting it altered again? Might as well have sizes and i alter myself..more efficent that way..oh well.. just a thought but at least now i dun have to worry abt wat clothes i have to wear to work each day.. den again.. gives me more reason to buy new casual clothes..
..haiz.. really dunnoe where all my money goes to each month..think I'm a spendtriff.. i buy too much clothes..too much useless staff and hmm.. now..where else did my money go.. must really start budgeting and planning for some investments.. wooh.. alot of things i wanna do.. huh.. but i guess wat is most pressing is to get a hang of the operations as well as the admin side of things.. must really jia you.. think its not easy..many pple judging you..assessing you.. tom is another working day.. more complex relations between co-workers.. :)

When a molehill became a mountain

Something happened at work recently that made me truely realise that the working world is indeed not the same as the study world i use to inhabit.. I was put on duty wif another person and we were short handed that nite... although I was hasitant abt being left on my own when my partner goes for his rest..i gamely agreed to take on the challenge.. but.. my collegue..being the kind person that he is..refused to go take his rest at the allocated time.. he stayed on to help me..in case there are cases that I cannot handle.. i was grateful.. and mentioned it to the person in charge of the roster that Mr Ng refused to go and rest..

I went to work the following nite feeling cheery..i saw on the roster that instead of putting 2 person like the previous..there was an additional person deployed there.. so i innocently commented that..heyz..tonite I'm put as understudy again.. and my boss also pop by and ask me how i was coping.. but later on i realised..to my dismay and absolute shock..people are commenting that the additional manpower was deployed there becouse I could not handle my work..thata why they need to put so many pple at such a easy place.. my heart sank.. and i was truely depressed that whole nite.. i mean... Mr Ng refused to go and rest dispite my constant asking..and his kindness has resulted in me being labelled as incompetent..and him feeling gulity for causing me so much trouble...haiz.. how can people make judgements without understanding the entire story..how can something so simpe be so distorted..its truely scarely ...come to think of it..that messages get distorted as it passes frm person to person.. I may be a slow learner..but i do put in effort to learn my wk and to be labelled as incompetent for no reason leaves me sad and angry..think the wking world is too complex..wonder how and i going to survive the next few decades huh..